All for You

Falling will be okay as long as I fall into You.
Crying is fine as long as my heart cries for You.
Humbling myself is what I should do.
Screaming I can stand as long as I shout Your praise.
Losing I understand as long as I lose myself in praise.
Forgetting this world of a lost and broken haze.

We are Nothing without God (Bless those in Connecticut)

We have a nation of heavy hearts today. Questions arise that we can’t answer and we don’t want to. Unless you have ever been directly touched by something like this its hard to put yourself in the shoes of those whose world has been shattered.

I am 29 years old, born in the 80s. Like all generations I have seen my fare share of tragedies. I have seen the school shooting, the Oklahoma city bombing, the Trade Centers falling, the Pentagon attached…our world has seen so much loss its hard to comprehend it all. 

All of those things have touched us so deeply and even though we may not be the ones there when it happened it has left us scared. That is because, as Americans, as human being, our hearts and souls cry out to the victims. We mourn the loss of those people as if they were our flesh and blood.

In a way, I believe that they are and that is why we hurt along with their immediate families. We are brothers and sisters in Christ so how could we not hurt for them? God gave us this heart and a love for each other that not even science or anything else for that matter can explain. We need that love and we desire it. So when one of our brothers or sisters does something so horrendous, we look inside ourselves and wonder why. We wounder how that could happen.

I have always been a very spiritual and faithful person. In my heart of hearts, I believe that there is a God and he sent His son to die on the cross so that we may receive eternal salvation. I also believe that He sent the Holy Spirit here as our comforter. When we seek Him he will guide us. When we stray and do not pray or study or strive to be the people He wants us to be, that is when the darkness seeps in.

In my soul, I know that there is good and there is evil and it is up to us to choose which side we are on. We have allowed, as Christians, this world to pick apart our faith little by little. More and more each day that darkness seeps in. We don’t think that God is relevant or that He is even needed. We have become prideful and think we can do it all on our own.

Well, I’m sorry, I can’t live my life like that. I will not live my life like that. I know that there is a pure and Holy God that I should cling to when all the world is falling down around me. He will keep me steady and He will lead me where I need to go.

With all that being said, I pray that the people of this world realize that there is more to this life than material things or who adores them. It doesn’t matter who you are or what you have accomplished, you are nothing without God. Nothing can save you or love you the way God can. 

I am not writing this to offend anyone or to make anyone upset. I am writing this to heal my own heart and pray that I can help someone else in the process. I pray for all those families who are beyond devastated tonight. My heart breaks for them and I pray that they can find peace one day. May grant rest the souls of those children and adults who have come home today.

Love always,
Amanda

 

Why are You Reading This? Go Vote!

Seriously, I’m glad you’re taking the time to read my blog, but I still encourage you to go put your two cents in today. How blessed we are to live in country where we can decide our leaders! I can’t express how thankful I am that I was born and raised in the USA. I won’t get into who you should vote for and why (that ship sailed a long time ago), but I hope and pray that God puts the right man in office and that he will lead our country to great things.

We are given so many things in this country. I mean, even now I am sitting here, expressing my personal opinion without fear for my life. There are many countries where words are forbidden to be used to express anything other than what you’re told to express. As a writer that is a horrible thought. My life is consumed by words and I am thankful I can use them however I choose.

So, go vote, exercise the freedom that so many brave men and woman have fought and died for. While we all have our difference of opinions, I’m glad to know that after today we are still brothers and sisters of this great country.

Giving Thanks

I know it isn’t Thanksgiving, but I had to take a quick second to give thanks to God. I know I can do that on my own time, but hey, this is my blog and I like confessing with words, both verbally and written. He has blessed me so much with not only the art of writing, but with great supporters.

My family, all of them, have always supported my writing. I have a great husband, while not a big reader, is so encouraging. My mom has always pushed me to publish my works. My friends, especially my personal Editor, are without a doubt the best in the world.

It’s just amazing to have so many people love me and love what I do.

And, thanks to all my blog followers. Your likes and comments are very much needed and appreciated!

Amanda

Wonder by A.G. Porter

Looking and wondering, what have I become?
Wondering and wondering, what have I done?
Can you ever look at me again?
Will I ever be alive within?

Looking and wondering, where am I going?
Wondering and wondering, is my pain showing?
Will you ever love me again?
Can I ever be free from sin?

Looking and wondering, what light is that?
Wondering and wondering, how I made it back.
You will always love me for me.
In your grace I will always be.